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Jeremy_Sheer
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Name: Jeremy
Birthday: 3/10/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: I love movies!! I love people! I love Disney! I love anything epic and soundtracks and I know so much information your jaw will drop anyone screws up anything in movies or books or Disney i hate it! I like Music and Plays and acting!! I love DVDs action Disney, Books, Entertainer man, Disney Master and friend to everyone. and I love all of you!
Expertise: Movies, the Lord, Computers here and there, Music acting Disney cinematography, etc. I also have a great memory I remember who i talked to, what clothes they where wearing, time date and place!! awesome!!! if you love me you will ask questions!
Industry: Media
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  B007JSS
MSN: jeremy_sheer@tayloru.edu
Member Since:
5/31/2005
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| Well I know I havent written in a long time. Thats because well for one, I have no more readers. Two, people stopped reading. Three, I'm a waste of space. My father makes me feel Like I shouldnt even been created, I have what? maybe 5 or 6 close friends who deserve all the attention, devotion and dedication in the world.
Im 28 year old now. a Year ago a friend wrote me that I was toxic. I ruined their life my favorite lines she said to me still burns in my memory:
"the firm belief that you're a remarkable person that God has unimaginably wonderful plans for, and that we're not part of them anymore."
"if anyone ever ends a friendship with you and makes you feel like it's because you weren't good enough to be their friend, or because you were too big a sinner, or anything like that, they were DEFINITELY not a friend worth losing."
"we NEVER had the kind of friendship that would justify visits, and in the current circumstances, a visit in person would make us extremely uncomfortable."
I honestly look back at my life I used to have 10 great close friends. Now i have maybe 5. Thats it.
most of everyone else is aquaintences or people who remember me from back when.
I sometimes wonder if I suck, im impossible to get along with, People friend me because I listen and I put up with their crap.
I honestly believe at this point in my life the friends I make this day and age just dont happen out of the blue.....I know im easy to get along with and i would love to be your friend. But people enjoy leaving me more being friends with me.
Sometimes I feel like a loser. like I am my own fan (or God is my own fan) Im my own best friend I sometimes talk to myself more than others because i love being connected to people.
Other people are completely turned off by my love for others and the design that I was created to have great connections with people. Like i am a DNA link and when I connect with people, its a perfect puzzle piece
I look back at what happened I had Midnight tickets to the Avengers. My two best friends had the wrong dates on them. I could of walked in the theatre and abandoned them. but I didnt. because ive felt that way. things have happened to me before. I was ditched for Iron Man 2 when i had more friends. I was also ditched for pie. i sat alone sitting in a restaurant when my friend "meet me thee at 1" they never showed
Sometimes I honestly people dont care as much as me. I am a dieing breed. I think and listen to the pouring rain How I dont deserve to be on this planet. My heart breaks thinking No matter how close i get to people "IM TOO MUCH"
"YOU ARENT THAT GOOD OF A FRIEND ANYWAY"
the memories like an assassin creed continue to burn on.
I look at the words Quantity:
(well i only have about 5 or 6 really close people i open to so i dont have as many friends anymore.)
I look at Quality: their really great but sometimes im not good enough.
I feel I fail a lot at friendship. Like its my fault.
I also feel like im stuck inside a facebook wall or trapped within a phone. Thats all i will ever be crammed in a device.
I dont know my heart hurts. Its too big. I care too much. and in reality
nobody really cares that I do these things.
maybe one day when I am heaven God will tell me "Well Done good and faithful servant"
on earth im failing. But in Heaven I will be rewarded for doing what I was created to do:
LOVE like Jesus did. I mean if you are my friend, You know there is no question how much I care about you.
If you wanted free tickets to a park, I would get them
If you wanted audio from Disneyland I would rip the audio board right out of the park
If you wanted sushi I would go to Japan.
if you wanted chocolate I would go to Switzerland
If you needed a Game Fix I would make sure you had it.
I don't I guess my brain feels unappreciated, but my heart says its not true and keep on loving no matter how much it hurt
i don't know I dont think I will ever have a friend who loves like I do.
People arent used to me never will be. I will never have a great family. I will always be adopted.
I know some of these things are true, but it helps to write about them
I sit here Missing out on being one of the first people in my state seeing Avengers. For making the right decision.
It kinda hurts.
I am also mad at facebook i feel like it laughs in my face saying "Your friends or other people have better lives then you and you are liked less then these awesome people"
I dont know these are my thoughts. Sometimes my brain is my worst enemy.
I get ready to sleep distraught and saddened. These are things I am dealing with.
sometimes I think people think of me as this thing when there friends with me
When in reality Im this
Yep still feeling like a Loser and a Waste of Space as I type this oh well :(
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| well today was just perfect. I got a hate mail and i felt pretty rotten. I worked today and played more AC2.
I was really happy for a while.....felt kinds lonely, people who dont care dont matter.....
anyway im all caught up........it feels really weird not writing a birthday song for the first time when i did for 3 years........
the people who tell me "i am always here for you and stick with you" are usually the people who are the first to leave. welcome to adulthood.
anyway april 19th......
best mario character ever!
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| started AC2 and im very excited for the series.....i had an ok day, i ate and hung out with friends :D
Anyway im kinda sad i miss people and i am just wanting to be loved one day at time....
i had bad memories attack myself tonight and i really hurt for no reason...anyway more blogs on the way
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| welp, Im almost done with AC1 so frustrated ugh I wish that one was not annoying........
Actually i beat it whew heeew on to AC2! i dont know why im so sad I love my friends I dont really have much to write about but its just ridiculous.....one year ago today I lost a friend over her disowning me because i stood up to her being lowsy. I tried to confront her being a bad friend but it got worse and I lied because i watned to light myself on fire and in the process i lit everyone else on fire......
I regreat the way i went about it, and i sinned for lying but as i look back it needed tgo happen because God was smacking me on the side of the head telling me this was a one sided friendship and it was absuive and i couldnt speak my mind in that friendship.
but now i have a new friend she is not only amazing she is the best thing that ever happened to me in 2011. I needed this friend......
anyway more blogs on the way.....
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| Anyway church was good but then i felt bad lol
ate good and played some games....anyway onto the 16th.
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